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Private Paths on the Common Journey
by Chris Grygo
See, I am doing something new! Now it
springs forth, do you not perceive it?
-- Isaiah 43: 19
Pentecost, the Feast commemorating the outpouring of the Holy Spirit on
the Church, reminds us that the Easter Season is ended for the
year. And what a year it was! The same Holy Spirit that
enabled the Apostles to proclaim the Gospel of Jesus Christ to all
nations was manifested to us this Easter through the witness of four
women-- sisters of ours who were welcomed into the fullness of the
Church at Easter Vigil. On behalf of CYA, I recently had the
honor of interviewing Sarah, Tracy, Chris and Karin about their
journeys to Catholicism. There were many common threads linking
their stories of faith. Read along as these four women highlight
for us how God brought each of them into our Catholic Family.
The first theme to jump out of the stories was the role relationships
played in drawing these four women to the Church. Sarah told me
that the original impetus to be fully initiated into Catholicism came
through a man she dated. After many discussions together, the two
attended a talk by Cardinal Dulles entitled, “Why be Catholic?” The
event was pivotal for Sarah, who said that “it explained what he [her
boyfriend] couldn’t about the faith.” The talk eventually led
Sarah to attend St. Francis Xavier Church and to consider the Rite of
Christian Initiation for Adults (RCIA). “I kept coming to St.
Francis’ RCIA off-schedule…” she explained, “and finally started
studying in preparation for making my sacraments this year.”
Sarah said she initially “held back because of the line in the Creed
that says ‘I believe in one, holy, Catholic and Apostolic Church.’ I
didn’t understand what it meant by ‘one’ and ‘apostolic.’” RCIA
classes clarified the essentials of the faith for Sarah, and convinced
her of the truth proclaimed by the Church. Sarah noted that Sr.
Helene Conway, with whom she also met one-on-one, was “very matter of
fact and not opinionated. She helped me learn what the Church
teaches and to become Catholic for the right reasons.” Sarah’s
process touched her heart as well as her mind. “I had an
emotional outburst the night Frank Greene, my sponsor, spoke at RCIA on
prayer. I was crying the whole time, out of fear of the step I
was taking.” Sarah recounted that she “felt prayerful throughout
the entire next day. I kept focusing on the words ‘I praise you’
which was something I wanted to work on in my life. I have never
had a problem praising God, but I wanted to redirect my prayer to focus
outwardly instead of just asking all the time. The tears signified, to
me, humility. I wanted the congregation to be able to say that I
was really ready at Easter.” They did, and Sarah received the
sacraments of Confession, Confirmation, and Eucharist this Easter.
Tracy also came to consider Catholicism through her relationship.
Tracy described growing up in the Wesleyan tradition and being active
in the church her whole life. She and Tom spoke a lot about faith
as their relationship deepened, engaging in a mutual investigation that
found the two making a Mission trip to El Salvador through Tracy’s
church and periodically attending Mass with Tom. Similar to
Sarah’s experience, Tracy and Tom eventually raised questions they
“couldn’t answer on their own.” A course at St. Francis Xavier
taught by parishioner Bill Frederickson on “The Holy Catholic Church”
helped to answer many of their questions, and led Tracy and Tom to
attend RCIA classes. Tracy said she was impressed “by the sense
of community with others in the class and in RCIA, and I realized I had
many misconceptions about the Catholic Church. The sacramental
life also really appealed to me.” Tracy described how learning
about the Catholic faith gave her “new and fresh ways to receive
Christ.” She continued, “the Spirit challenged and prompted me to
become Catholic, and to bridge Catholics and Protestants
together.” After a year of RCIA classes, Tracy decided to take
another year to pray and discern whether God truly wanted her to become
Catholic. Convinced of God’s will for her, Tracy completed RCIA
and received the sacraments of Baptism, Confirmation and Eucharist at
Easter Vigil.
The third to tell about coming to Catholicism through personal
relationships was Chris. Chris grew up in various Protestant
denominations, most recently the Presbyterian Church. She
attended Catholic Mass at St. Francis Xavier with her friend Meaghan,
and reported to me how much she really liked Sunday Liturgy.
Chris’s connection with Catholicism was also a familial one. Her
mother was Catholic, and Chris felt exploring Catholicism might be a
way to connect with “that part of my history.” At St. Francis,
she enjoyed Fr. Greg’s preaching and pastoral style. Chris said
candidly, “My impression was that Catholics were dry and the rituals
were lacking passion, but I didn’t feel that at all. I realized
so much meaning in the ritual, and that it wasn’t full of meaningless
acts as my impression led me to think.” Chris also appreciated
“the global presence and uniformity of worship everywhere, and also how
the Church questions and addresses issues we’re all going through in
society.” Chris made her sacraments of Baptism,
Confirmation and Eucharist at the Easter Vigil.
Karin came to explore the Catholic faith on her own, a former Lutheran
who and had been very active in church until her teen years.
Karin began attending Catholic Mass periodically at St. Francis when
she moved to Brooklyn, and found that she “enjoyed the Word of God and
I found applying it to life now was such a change from the days of
falling asleep in church as an adolescent.” Karin eventually met
with Fr. Greg to have “a list of questions” answered. She
reported that the conversation “Single-handedly turned my view of
Catholicism on its head and changed my disdain for the Catholic
Church.” Most surprising to her was how many of her beliefs and
Christian instincts were in agreement with Catholic teaching. A
subsequent trip to Germany with her Lutheran church to study the life
of Martin Luther convinced Karin that Lutheranism was no longer her
religion. She said, “Although I admired and respected it, I
didn’t feel I belonged there anymore.” Karin continued to be
“haunted by the idea of being Catholic” and began wondering about the
process. By chance, she ran into a friend at St. Francis who told
her about RCIA. Karin contacted Sr. Helene and began attending
RCIA classes without any commitment to becoming Catholic. The
classes reaffirmed her beliefs, and renewed her faith. Karin said
she was “uplifted and felt carried,” and that the Church “had a
magnetic, organic and natural draw for me.” She also learned
“that you could have struggles within the faith.” Karin received
her sacraments of Confirmation and Eucharist on Easter.
Three other common themes stood out to me as I listened to Sarah,
Tracy, Chris and Karin. Most poignant was the theme of struggle
during Lent and Holy Week. Karin described it as “one of the most
terrifying experiences of my life,” saying “Fear started creeping in
when we met the Bishop at the Rite of Election. On Holy Thursday,
I stepped out of myself and wondered ‘How did I end up here?’
Would the Church really accept me doubts and all?” Tracy reported
that she too had doubts, asking herself “how do you know it isn’t just
this Church or Fr. Greg that you like? What about the parts you
don’t fully understand yet?” Like the others, Chris recalled that
she “panicked a little as Easter approached. Every doubt came
back to face me stronger than before.” She added, “The doubt got worse
as the day drew closer. I was tempted not to attend Church, and
became afraid. I doubted things I never doubted before, like the
Trinity.” Sarah also witnessed to this struggle, which she said
“got worse as the day drew nearer.” Like Chris, Sarah was tempted
“not to go to Church and even to run away.” Luckily, the women
were able to take some comfort in knowing they were all experiencing
the same thing—an experience Sr. Helene reminded them was common
throughout history. Satan always presents challenges to those
coming closer to God and the Church.
Fortunately, the women were rewarded for their difficulty with powerful
experiences of the Sacred Triduum. Tracy said that Holy Week was
“the most intense time of spiritual consciousness I’ve had since the
mission trip to El Salvador.” She continued, “As the Church
darkened and the Paschal candle entered the Church during the Vigil, I
felt the darkness in myself lifting and the light of Christ filling me
as the Church light up slowly with candle light.” Similarly,
Karin reported “Sitting in the darkened Church before the Vigil started
with the lighting of the Easter fire, I was serene and peaceful.
The whole thing was an unfolding splendor.” Chris remembered,
“The first time I was ever at St. Francis was for Easter Vigil to hear
Meaghan sing. It was wonderful to come full circle, beginning at
the Easter Vigil last year and then receiving the sacraments at the
same time this year.” Sarah said she “smiled through the whole
ceremony. He had risen, and I could feel the focus on
Resurrection. I was surprised I didn’t cry—I just wanted to jump
up and down! God was with me, and the Vigil left me feeling
released.”
This joyful experience of the Paschal mysteries and sacraments is
another theme shared by Sarah, Tracy, Chris and Karin. The
Catholic Triduum services enabled them to walk with Christ and
experience His Passion in a dynamic new way. Karin shared that
“the Washing of the Feet on Holy Thursday nearly brought me to
tears.” Sarah felt the “low mood and somberness of Holy
Thursday”, while Tracy felt “in the moment with Christ” as He was
betrayed and handed over. Tracy, Chris and Sarah spoke about
walking the Way of the Cross with Christ on Good Friday, and thinking
more intensely about the meaning of the Passion events this year as
they became Catholics.
It was clear how much they also desired to celebrate the Eucharist with
us. Tracy shared, “More than Baptism and Confirmation, Eucharist
was the light at the end of my Lenten tunnel. Leading up to
Easter, I really came to understand the Real Presence and couldn’t wait
to receive communion with everyone.” Karin echoed this same
sentiment, recollecting that initially she felt “frustrated and
separated because I couldn’t take Communion, which became a nagging
desire to become Catholic and participate in Communion.” She went
to say, “There was so much build up that I didn’t get the full sense of
Eucharist at the Vigil, which I thought might be physiological.
The first time I went down to Communion with the choir, after watching
them go without me for so long, was incredibly meaningful for me.”
The last theme linking the faith stories of Sarah, Tracy, Chris and
Karin was the support they felt from the CYA community. Tracy
said “CYA played a huge role. I met all these young Catholics in
CYA; all living, working and practicing their faith. It helped
bring lifestyle and faith challenges together.” Karin described
CYA as “an added bonus” saying, “I appreciated the company of artistic,
fun, and witty people, who made the process sweeter. I felt more
supported, and it made the decision to become Catholic easier… another
way I was carried.” Chris echoed, saying “the vitality of CYA
really helped—especially everyone’s enthusiasm.”
It seems to me that the enthusiasm is two-way. Through our
sisters, we see that God continues to bless us as a community of
Catholic Young Adults in Brooklyn. Their stories also remind us
to consider our own journey to the Lord, and to mark the times of
struggle and sanctity; the times of longing and joy around the table of
faith; the times that relationship and community draw us closer to God
and each other as Christians. Each of us is walking a private
path on a common journey. At this Pentecost, may the Holy Spirit
embolden us to tell the story of God’s presence in our lives with the
same honesty and love we read in the stories of Sarah, Tracy, Chris and
Karin.
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